He is lol
Anyways..
I guess I'm much better than I was a lil while ago.. ._. I wasn't my happiest... actually pretty p-oed (whut else is new XD) ... I mean.. how are you supposed to feel when someone decides to call you picky... and pretty much say your opinion on the drawing doesn't matter at all... saying it's the writer who matter. I mean.. I'm the one drawing for you dued.. If I dun like the way my drawing turned out.. I have the right to scrap it and do a new drawing. *sighs* I felt very very insulted by him... I mean.. I do have an opinion right.. isn't it supposed to be a joint effort? O.o
anyway..I gave up on that project... -.-; I kinda wanted to in the first place...whutever...
I'm just too much of a people pleaser... I knew the outcome would be bad.. why did I say yes in the first place.. baka baka baka
I really hate breaking promises... heh.. I can become pretty self destructive when I do..
but... I guess the small bit of insult made me not care too much about breaking it..
If I decide to do a comic...I'll be my own writer.. I'm pretty good at it myself.. ._.;; I dun like alot of my work.. but I have alot of ideas I want to use.. at my own pace.
meh...
This morning was happy win.. even though mom kinda yelled about the phone as soon as I woke up.. which frustrated me..
She then told me that Mark invited Zuzu over for dinner :3 Which was win! Even though neither me or him went.. (Me because I felt like being lazy.. and it was wayy to last minute) ^^ Either way... the invite was a good thing lol

Kyohaku-niisan asked more about kitsune today... I tried to help him as much as I could... but.. heh.. ; somethings he had to figure out by himself. I can only give my dear brother a push.. he needs to learn how to swing on his own...
I do wish I could do more to help... But heh.. ; gomennasai..

anyway.. I guess thats it for now.. I'm getting a bit tired.. bai bai ^-^

lol wow.. my clock is so off... it's crazy.. ^^ I can't believe it's actually 6 something.. I really thought it was about 2 ish... I failed
anyway... *sighs* I haven't been feeling my best today... due to a few issues...
Well... me and Kaz have been going out for about a month now.. There have been trying times.. but we've gotten through them... so far so good.. ^^ I'm happy with him.. I trust him.. being with him is the first time I actually got someone I fell for first.. not them falling for and chasing after me... *sighs* Iono how to explain it.. but if feels alot better.
I'm happy.... but... I guess.. just people.. from the random stares I get while on the street with him.. to just friends who decide to get in the way of our relationship.. or even worse.. ex's... it's really annoying.
I'm really tired of the staring.. it's 2009 people! There are such thing as interracial relationships! They happen! It's not weird! Nor is it a fucking fad! White, Black, Latino, whut ever! We're all human! (for the most part) Color doesn't matter to me when it comes down to love.. it shouldn't matter to others.. So fuckin idiotic.
Bigotry's a bitch... a big fat bitch. *sighs* I mean.. hell I even came across an anti furry site.. claiming the furries weren't people? WTH!?!? Just because someone likes a certain fandom doesn't mean they aren't real people.. and you can treat them anyway you want to! Thats just bad.. no matter how you wanna slice it.. Saying their not a race or anything doesn't justify the discrimination either. When your wrong your wrong.. *sighs*
Man.. I'm just a bit pissed off..
I mean.. I guess I should take offense to that site too.. since both me and Kaz like the furry fandom.. I wouldn't say I was completely a furry.. more than just being an anthro artist. Either way.. it's very offensive.. and I feel sorry for the people who are.. and have to deal with the nonsense from people.
It's just sad...
anyways.. I guess I'm just a bit fed up with the world... very fed up.
Iono what to do about it really.. I won't give up... I never give up.
I just.. need a good way to cope with it all. I guess ranting is one way ; heh...
oops... lol
anyways.. heading to bed now.. very very tired... night.. (morning too lol) ppls reading this XD

I wonder how that'll taste ; prolly spicy/sweet hehe X3

Anywhhhoooo.. I'm bored so I'm gonna write a journal I win I win!!!!
Well. things seem to be getting better for me... Less stressful i guess.... I'm happy with where I am and who I'm with. I haven't been having bad dreams anymore and I've been able to focus on music and art more. Prepare to see more pics from Tamako! WIN!

How are things are supposed to feel..
When you actually love someone...
Is there supposed to be guilt.. and anger.. and people ready to turn their back on you?

I love him..
if you hate me for that... delete me.. I rather not be ignored for my choices. I won't revoke my choices due to people not liking them. Because it's not your god damned life.. it's mine! So fucking deal with it!
Your choice..